Dominus Thanos

“I suppose”, said the shadow when I asked about my heart. As you may not know, I have found some holes that I supposed it would like fill. I know which tools carved these internal chasms; I dare say I sharpened them myself. Though the last time I tried to fill them, I took away pieces from someone else. Now something needs to take up residence, lest the emptiness decides to grow. I fear a dream would not fair me well as they so seldom reflect, let alone represent, the truth of life and love. Besides, there are enough dreams in me to disappoint my soul; I need not add to my masquerade in the hopes of feeling whole. As for a new desire, I dare say it would come to naught, for as it stands I struggle to satisfy the desires I have already caught. Far too long has hope prolonged this most decrepit state, I dare not allow more to take hold lest I believe in fate. The tenant I fear most of all is most certainly my hate. It’s far too unstable, unruly, malicious and unkind. Were I to allow it in my chambers, I am certain that soon after, there would be even more missing parts that I would find. So I opted to for the shadow, so complacent and clam. Its presence infers there’s a light that I could find. So I waited for a long time after its first response, for I was in dire need of something, with which I could be close. Then it shifted and then it asked of me “have you considered love?”

Object

In our daily experiences we observe, interpret and construct meaning around objects. They may be as mundane as rocks or cars. An object may even manifest as a person, a situation or a feeling. It can be any ‘thing’ to which one attributes meaning and can desire or reject as abject. So here are a few facets to consider when considering the implications of the ‘object’

It Is Subject To Personal Perspective

· Its discursive position

· Cultural interpretation

· Relation to concept of abject

· Place in personal narrative

· Value to personal construct

o Validate

o Strengthen

o Negate

o Oppose

· Ornamental attributes

o Contribution to aesthetics

o Economic implications

o Peer appraisal

o Correlation to personal construct of value

Negotiating Implication of Value

· What fears of possible attributes will it negate

· What constructs of self will be validated or dismissed if the object is not attained/ avoided

· What actions/choices/sacrifices are needed to attain the object

o Weight of attempt VS degree of possible gain

· Which desire(s) does it relate to

· Who in one’s life is affected by the object

o Degree of affect and value of individual are to be noted

· To whom and to what degree is it valued

· What has been express by other regarding the object

· What cultural/sub-cultural implications does the object have

· Has this object, or a simular one, already been in one’s possession

o If so:

§ For how long

§ Why did one loose possession

§ How did one attain it

§ What was the initial motivation for attaining it

§ How did it affect one’s life/relations/perspective/behaviour

Possible Reasons for Perceiving It As Abject

· Cultural norms/morays/taboos

· Cost too great, therefore reject instead of experiencing loss

· Associated with dystopic elements of self

· Fear of confronting its unattainability

· Tied to negative schema/ invokes a negative construct

o Linked to traumatic experience

o Discursive constitution of self/object results in tension/anxiety